I still don’t feel good. I’m being all pissy, which is normal for right now, but when I was brushing my teeth and brushing my tongue especially I almost threw up, like, a billion times. Even when I was just gargling water. LIKE. ARE YOU SERIOUS. And maybe I just need to sleep more, but I still feel over heated even though I’m under temp all the time. Which probs isn’t normal either, but it’s better than a fever.
Anyway, on a slightly different note, I wanna talk about my weight. I’m normally about 127 lbs, but my tight fitting jeans looked kinda loose on me today, so I checked my weight and I’m about 124. Not much of a difference, but now I’m just kind of scared about what I’m eating and not eating because now I’m entering that dangerous thought process of “I need to stick better to the diet I’m suppose to have, but what can I even eat on that diet, nothing, so I guess I’m gonna eat nothing.” and then I don’t eat and loose way too much weight way too fast and scare myself but then I can’t bring myself to eat again because I lost my appetite.
I’ve been cockblocked….
You know how I’ve been wanting a girlfriend? Well my buddy, Wally, gave in a good word about me to his friend Annica and she friend requested me last night. We’ve been talking today and she’s really nice and adorable. She told me about a shounen ai manga she reads. After a while I see she changed her relationship status to “Annica **** is in a relationship” and I’m over here like “I was cockblocked on the first day?”
Which is terrible.
Apparently Drew is being immature about a comment I made on his status on facebook.
I don’t know if he was already frustrated or mad or something.
But he made a status that said “does anyone wanna go see a movie with me tomorrow?” and I commented on it saying “no.” meaning only I didn’t want to. Just being a bit of a dick. Like siblings do.
He sends me a text saying “fuck you.” and deleted my comment.
At first I thought this was hilarious.
Then I found out he was actually mad at me.
Even though he does this shit to me all the time (making you have no friends jokes and the like, just being a older brother.)
Which is why I think he was already mad.
But god dammit.
I was actually cheering myself up from an argument I had with him earlier then he decided to be a fucking child.
what the fuck ever.
I’m just gonna rage draw and maybe cry a little.
Conclusion of the first day, tired as all fuck. My legs feel like they’re going to fall off. I feel like I’m going to puke due to dehydration (I’ll worry about that tomorrow.) all in all, an awesome con experience.
So I’m drawing a picture of my Avatar on xbox right? since he’s old and adorable and I felt like it. Then I drew a vagina and I still don’t know why.
/casually looks like life choices.
I’m done for now. /crashes
blinding back ground because I don’t know what to do with back grounds.
I started this a few days ago, I drew it up because that was what I was wearing, since it’s the middle of July and outside it’s Hell’s kitchen and in my room at the time I was freezing my arctic ass off, So I compromised.
Not pictured; I only had one sock on.
I need to re evaluate my life.